Last Day Of 2014!!!

Heyyyyy.
Okay so today is the last day of 2014. This year has gone by way too quickly! I can't believe its 31st December already!
I went out with my friends today to celebrate the last day. :)
I wanna take some time to remember everything good that has happened and everything I have learnt from the bad experiences in 2014.
2014 has been one of the best years of my life. I had SO much of fun (with friends and with family)!
I have enjoyed the most and have learnt a lot.
Now that 2015 is like 3 hours away, I want to promise myself that I'll do my best to not repeat any mistake that I've made in 2014. I promise to become better each day and to work to my true potential. I wish the best for my friends and family and for everyone in general. :D

Anyway, as I was saying, I want to think about everything that has happened in 2014. It has been one of the most eventful years of my life. I went with family for a family vacation, family functions and I went out with friends for movie marathons, sleepovers, lunches and what not. xD
I had various functions in school which we attended for the last time as students. I made new friends and old friendships strengthened and many of my friends feel like family. I'm so thankful to God for amazing family and friends. <3

In 2015, I promise to be more positive and I promise to work harder and with greater determination. I will love my family and friends forever obviously!

That's all for now!
Enjoy life x
Blue Claw

Random thoughts. :)

All my friends have gone off to sleep now and I feel like I still gotta talk and express my feelings, you know?
Anyway, so I was just thinking about my age and all. I'm 17 right now and but I don't feel 17. I can't believe 17 years have gone by and yeah, well, even though I have achieved quite a lot of things, I feel like I should've done more. I should've taken part in more clubs and activities in high school. (My school is going to get over in about 3 months). I've definitely learnt a lot from all the activities I did take part in. Now my mission is to do as much as I can in college.
I want to take part in everything, from theatre to dance, from science clubs to art exhibitions; I wanna try everything. I want to learn and experience a lot more. I want to live and enjoy life. And I will. :D
Taking part in activities and clubs is not only for entertainment. Its about a lot of things. Its about finding yourself through working for what you care about, its about making new friends and talking to different kinds of people, its about putting yourself out there, outside your comfort zone and facing new challenges and letting go of your inhibitions, its about passion, creativity, learning, growing and achieving valuable things. *sigh* As I was saying, I want to experience everything and I want to work to my true potential. :)

That's all for now!

Enjoy life x

Blue Claw

Random rants and other things.

Yep, I'll write part two of the previous blog soon.

Anyway, right now, I just really need to talk to someone and all of my best friends are busy (because exams are going on in our school). That's why I decided to just write a new post.

Like a gazillion things are going on in my head right now. From examination pressure to preparation schedules to weird stupid stuff to whatever. I'm going through so many things that I don't even know what to write. Instead of stopping for a moment to think about what exactly it is that I'm feeling, I'm just going with the flow for now. Its just a phase and I hope it'll pass soon.

But right now I feel like I need to vent.

So, related to exams. I'm so mad at the education system in my country because it is not well organized or anything. Its just a stupid system which is based on memorization and nothing else. It doesn't care for logical reasoning, understanding or practical applications. UGH it really annoys me. But there's nothing we can do to change it. Sadly.

I had one of my exams today and I know I could've done well but my school didn't give us adequate time for preparation. I did as much as I could've and I am happy for that but I do feel sad that I wasn't able to do more. I don't know how to explain this to my parents. Okay, some context. I was a class topper till two years ago. Last year was not a good year in school or otherwise and I didn't do well in my exams. This year, I've done average, not too bad but not too good either. I certainly should've done better but there came a point where I just couldn't handle school work and entrance exam preparation classes together. I tried to but I couldn't. As a result, my results in both these places went down and I didn't know what to do to improve the situation.

But now I've made a decision and I'm going to focus on one thing now to get the best results from it.

Anyway, now for the weird stupid stuff. I know this may sound like bragging or whatever, but honestly, I'm a really good friend And all of  my friends agree. So yeah, since I'm a good friend and all, I don't talk about people behind their backs. But something happened today and I really feel like discussing it with someone but I can't because I don't do such stuff but I can still write about it. Nobody knows about my blog so I can vent here.

Okay so I have a lot of good friends and out of them, a few are my best friends. I won't be mentioning names so let one friend be P and another be Q.

I've been friends with P since like 6-7 years. P and Q have been really good friends since about 2 or 3 years. I've been friends with Q since less than 3 months but we're already so so close and I'm one of Q's closest friends. Q and I talk all the time, literally. So, I don't know why P does this, but P doesn't like it if someone else (me, in this case) becomes a better friend than her with one of her previous friends (Q, in this case). P is saying that she is still the one to know Q the longest and something else (okay, I forgot the second thing). Its not the first time P has done this. She does this everytime.

Like chill down, woman. Its not my fault that I make friends easily and its not fault that people like to talk to me. Its not my fault that Q and I have become best friends now. I don't know why people get jealous or insecure. I mean, I get it, to an extent. But as I said, its not the first time P is doing this.

Though P is also one of my really good friends, this thing about her really annoys me. And I can't even talk about it to anyone because I don't talk about people behind their backs and I usually let things go and be the bigger person. But honestly, I'm human. Things do annoy me at times and I need to vent at times.

Anyway, I always feel better after writing. Its just one of those things that helps one express themselves.

I feel better so let me just say this.

I'm actually very thankful to God for giving me such nice amazing friends. Everyone has their flaws and I have mine too. I'm not perfect and I never expect others to be perfect. Friendship is one of the awesome bonds where two people love, care for, respect, understand and help each other and I'm glad that I have amazing friends who help, guide, motivate, inspire and love me always.

I have to go for now.

Enjoy life x

Blue Claw

Positivity (and other things) xD (part 1)

Hey!
Today's post is gonna be about positivity (and other things :P ). :D
Right now I'm sunbathing and enjoying the weather. This wintery weather makes me really happy. I've never felt more positive than what I feel today and I thought I should write a post about it, not only for others to read but I'll read it too when I feel not so positive.
Anyway, the power of positive attitude is amazing. I mean, have you ever thought of all the things that you could do and the things you could achieve if you just be positive and if you don't care about what others think? Have you ever thought about the things you could be if you were not afraid?
You should think about it.
A positive attitude is what differentiates a successful person and a not so successful person.
Okay wait. What does being successful mean? Does it mean always winning every thing? Or does it mean failing and learning from bad experiences and then trying again till you succeed?
I think success is not about winning every thing. I think success is about experiencing everything, from failure to setbacks to success. Success is when you trip but you get back up and try again. Success is when you don't give up. Success is trying everything-not caring about whether you fail or no-and experiencing all of life's little pleasures.
All of this can be done only if you have a positive attitude towards life. Instead of feeling sad that something didn't go right or as you had planned, one should be happy that they're atleast alive and that they have another chance to get it right. If you start a list of things that you should be thankful for, you'd have a million things to write. So anyway yeah, one should be thankful for the not so good experiences as well coz there's no light without dark. And you wouldn't know how pleasant spring is if you don't experience a storm.
Storms are about helping us grow and become more than what we are today. They teach us how to work harder and that one should never give up.

Anyway, I have to go for now.
I'll write part 2 soon!

Enjoy life x
Blue Claw

Just the first post. :)

I couldn't really think of a good name for my blog so I just randomly decided on that name. :D
So its 3:45am right now and I had an urge to write something. I don't know what though. I just really wanted to start a new blog.
I don't have anything big or cool or something to share right now so I'll just write about stuff related stuff.
So I started watching this new tv series The Flash (2014). Its a spin-off of The Arrow. I love both of them. <3
I don't know if I can explain it, but I feel something different when I watch any tv series or read books. I feel awesome. I feel inspired. I feel great.
Even though I don't have time to spend on these things, especially these days (since my last year in school is coming to an end and I have to prepare for the final examinations as well as the entrance examinations and I have to complete applications etc), but I assessed my options and finally gave myself permission to watch just one series for now and I'm sure I won't regret the decision.
Hmm, I've always been great at taking decisions. I've always been an independent person who's almost always (kind of always :P ) sure of what she wants. I don't like regretting anything. If some experience is bad, then I just tell myself that I gotta learn from it and if its good, then well, its good!
Okay this is my first post and I've talked about such diverse topics. :P Hmm yeah, I love babbling.

Anyway, I have to go for now!
I'll write another post soon x